I have a wedding ceremony I sometimes perform called Magic, Mystery and Miracles. I didn’t write it by the way, I have to give credit where credit is due, my dad and step-mom, co-owners of Chapel of the Pines, wrote it. I’ve always loved the title, and it occurred to me that today is one of those Magic, Mystery and Miracles sort of days.
I got up to experience the magic of seeing an unexpected layer of new snow outside my bedroom window. We’ve been woefully short on snow this winter, and this was a pleasant surprise. Then the mystery of the day set in: why am I doing this? Why am I getting up to an alarm earlier than I normally would to meet a bunch of people for a MasterMind group when I have term papers to write, and jobs to complete, and things to do and places to go and people to see….and not only that but my dog Zeke is whining big time because he didn’t get his walk yesterday and he has GOT to have it today and not only that but he has GOT to have it EARLY!
To say I was feeling overwhelmed is a bit of an understatement.
So I went to my MasterMind group and talked about it and felt a bit better. Then I got some work done and felt yet a bit better. Then I bundled up and off Zeke and I went for our almost daily mile and a half walk. And as I was walking I felt a bit better, but I was still questioning why I’m doing what I’m doing. Why am I in a Masters degree program with the ultimate goal of a career change when my current career is uplifting and fulfilling? Sort of like jumping out of a perfectly good airplane, I’ve never seen the sense in that but people tell me it’s fun to do. Sometimes this doesn’t seem so fun. Why am I spending all this time studying, and making time for groups that people don’t come to, and offering services that people don’t take advantage of? Why does no one seem to want to improve their life?
I think I’ll go in the back yard and eat worms when I get home. That’s called self pity and it never got anyone anywhere, so I continue my walk and enjoy watching Zeke smell every little bump in the path, marking his way along our route.
So I finish my little pity party and am beginning to get into gratitude and my cell phone rings and it’s a dear friend with whom, in the course of our conversation, I find myself telling her what my vision is for the Center for Spiritual Living Lake Tahoe. It’s the first time I’ve put it into words, and it feels good. And I know why I’m doing what I’m doing. And the mystery of the day turns to magic.
Our conversation concludes, and I am still walking along with Zeke, marveling at the contrast between the warmth of the sun and cold of the snow, enjoying the fresh air, and I see an acquaintance walking towards me. Tahoe is a small town, I can rarely go anywhere without running into someone I know, even on a walk with Zeke. It’s one of the things I love about it. My friend looks a bit rough around the edges, so I ask him what is happening in his life, and his eyes begin to leak as he tells me his story. And my heart goes out to him, because I know the pain he is feeling and I just want to make it all better, but I can’t do that for him, he has to do it for himself. I can only offer a pathway for him to walk, so I do that, and h is eyes stop leaking, and he smiles, and thanks me, and tells me God sent me to him today.
And I walk away, and I cry a bit for him, and for all the people hurting in the world. And I know. Once again I know. I know why I am doing what I’m doing. It’s because I have a calling and a gift, and my gift is that I can help people. My gift is that I can hold the space for them to heal. My gift is that I can hold the light and show them where to dig, and keep them safe while they are digging.
And the magic and the mystery has once again turned into a miracle.
If you are hurting in any way, I hope you can also find the magic and the miracles in the mystery. They are there. Sometimes you have to work for them, sometimes you have to have help to find them, but they are there.
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